I was thinking and thinking and thinking about this. I have had a very long career at a job I love. I don't always love it, but, for the most part - it's been an awesome job and career. I always tell people that I want to work at an airline, because I want to have the benefit of flying wherever and whenever I wanted - so if I had thought about it years ago - instead of law enforcement, I probably should have found a job in the travel industry - - but, that didn't work. And, I fully intend one day to have those flight benefits.
But, I am thinking of what I would have loved my career to be. If I could have chosen the path of my life, I would have chosen to be a stay-at-home mom. I can't think of a more fulfilling career than to have been more available to my kids and been there more for them. My kids were raised by a mom who worked away from the home and spent a lot of time away from home. I worked shift work, so there were days they never even saw me. I worked holidays, so they were raised having Easter a week earlier or a week later; Thanksgiving a day earlier or a day later; Christmas was always Christmas - but, who knows what time it would have been celebrated or how. I didn't have a choice financially, because during a lot of time they were growing up, I was the sole bread winner and supported my little brood.
I was never very organized while my kids were growing up - I felt it was much more important to spend time with my kids than to do the dishes, because I may not get to spend the next day with them. I wanted to be available to help them with their homework and such. I almost felt, at times, they were rather neglected because I was not always there for them and that if I had been more available and there for them, maybe they would have done better in school, or socially, or life, or everything. I just didn't always feel I was there for them during their formative years when I should have been, because I was working.
I watch my daughter with her kids - never a more involved and wonderful mom is there. I envy her that she gets to stay at home and raise her kids and spend time with them while they are so young and learning so much - it's an awesome, awesome thing. She and her husband sacrifice so much for her to be there with the kids - and I can't imagine a more worthy cause to sacrifice for.
But, I am thinking of what I would have loved my career to be. If I could have chosen the path of my life, I would have chosen to be a stay-at-home mom. I can't think of a more fulfilling career than to have been more available to my kids and been there more for them. My kids were raised by a mom who worked away from the home and spent a lot of time away from home. I worked shift work, so there were days they never even saw me. I worked holidays, so they were raised having Easter a week earlier or a week later; Thanksgiving a day earlier or a day later; Christmas was always Christmas - but, who knows what time it would have been celebrated or how. I didn't have a choice financially, because during a lot of time they were growing up, I was the sole bread winner and supported my little brood.
I was never very organized while my kids were growing up - I felt it was much more important to spend time with my kids than to do the dishes, because I may not get to spend the next day with them. I wanted to be available to help them with their homework and such. I almost felt, at times, they were rather neglected because I was not always there for them and that if I had been more available and there for them, maybe they would have done better in school, or socially, or life, or everything. I just didn't always feel I was there for them during their formative years when I should have been, because I was working.
I watch my daughter with her kids - never a more involved and wonderful mom is there. I envy her that she gets to stay at home and raise her kids and spend time with them while they are so young and learning so much - it's an awesome, awesome thing. She and her husband sacrifice so much for her to be there with the kids - and I can't imagine a more worthy cause to sacrifice for.
Oh my hell woman. I am bawling! I love you! And you were a fantastic mom, I am always trying to live up to you.
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DeleteYou are making me cry. And I agree 100% with Crystal. You were and are a FANTASTIC mom. You were the one to stay with me in the hospital and take care of me when I was sick.And now you are a FANTASTIC grandma. I love you and appreciate everything you have done and do for me.
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DeleteYou are a great mom, you know people ask me why I'm such a nice or a good guy and the answer will always be, " because that's how my mamma raised me!"
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