CoCo's Corner

It's Christmas time.  I haven't been feeling it so much this year.  It's been like that for the last few years.  It's just kind of work.  I think it's more work than I want to put in. Decorating, shopping, buying, wrapping, more decorating, cards, more shopping, mailing, delivering, driving, cooking, more wrapping, baking, more decorating.   Just work.  Once it's all done, especially the decorating, I'm good.  I get up in the morning, I turn on my tree, it's on until I go to bed. Once the presents are bought, it's a good feeling - there is  nothing more I love than giving a gift.  I love giving a gift a Brazilian more times more than I like receiving a gift.   Once the presents are wrapped, I love the sight of them.  Once the stockings are hung, I'm very excited that they are there.  I think it's just the effort it takes to get to that point.  It's almost exhausting.  You throw in there your  normal life and it's just overwhelming

Our time in NewYork.  We got engaged there.  He couldn't even keep that a secret, he said to me before we left, "you know I'm going to propose to you there, right?" Last night we went to Ted's Civil Air Patrol Christmas Party.  I had a lot of memories flood back yesterday, as it was ten years ago at that very party that I decided that this was a man I could really love and spend more time with - maybe even spend my life with. When my kids dad died, I found myself single.  I grew to love my single life.  I didn't have to answer to anyone - other than to tell my kids I'll be here or I'll be there.  My kids were my world and we enjoyed doing a lot of things together.  I had a lot of people telling me that I needed to move on - what they didn't realize was that I had moved on - and I enjoyed my new single lifestyle. Unfortunately, in the meantime, I had been dating someone from my past and really stuck as to why this relationship was not the