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2011 - almost done........................

Spring
Seems when Halloween comes and goes, that you can see the finality of a year coming faster and faster.  It feels as though I always remember what happened this time last year - and last year, I would remember the year before.  This year I am reflecting on how I was a mess because the holidays were coming quickly and I knew right after that, there would be a wedding.

Life is such a quick trip.  Though, we think of people as what their age is - "oh, he's just a child", then they are a teen, the twenties come up quickly, then thirties - - life is really a very quick journey.  Myself, I don't feel much different than I did when I was in high school.  I may have a lot more pounds, a worry wrinkle in the middle of my forehead that makes me think of the Grand Canyon, stretch marks, cellulite, achy bones - and a laundry list of prescriptions - I really honestly don't feel like I am much different than I was as a teen - even though all of my kids have seen their teens come and go - I still feel like I am much younger than that.
Summer
Fall
I am seeing just how quickly it goes right now.  Thanksgiving is less than three weeks away.  How did that happen, it seems like I was just enjoying the summer warmth, the fall colors - and now, yesterday, I awoke to the snow on the ground and had to dig my car out.  I really don't mind this time of year.  The seasons are so pronounced - outside and in the stores.  Halloween decorations are down and Christmas is running in to fill the gap and will be here before you know it.  I do wish that we spent a little more time thinking of Thanksgiving.  BUT, it really doesn't matter - in a blink of an eye, we will be in the midst of cold January and February.  I have to say, January and the beginning of February are my least favorite months of the year - it is cold, it is dark.  By the end of February, things start to thaw a bit, we start looking forward to March and spring.
Winter
This year, life just seems so different.  My kids are older - they have their own lives.  Ted and I exist together in this house - we have a fun existence, but, it is just such a different existence.  I can't say I don't like it, because I really am enjoying having this time with just the two of us.  But, it's just such a different life.

Here's to a great end of the year.

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