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Cranky Old Lady

I do not know what is wrong with me.  Hopefully, it's just because it's January and I absolutely hate January.  To me, January is the very worst month; it's cold and it's gray and there is just nothing good
about it.  But, to say the least, I am ornery and mean and cranky and just plain hard to get along with.

I feel it in my work hours, in my home hours, in my errand hours, in every hour.

I went to the grocery store - and these are the people I called idiots, under my breath, in the hour I was gone:


  • the girl at the McDonalds drive-through.  I was the only one there in line, the only other person there was still at the board ordering.  "did you get the two apple juices?" - no, "did you get the two sausage McMuffins?" - no.  Blank stare.  I ordered the Diet Coke.  "oh - OK". 
  • the dude that kept inching further and further backwards as he backed up to park.  He kept getting closer and closer to my car.  He would put it in park, then the backup lights would go back on, he would put it in park, then the backup lights would go back on.  He did it like four times.
  • The produce guy.  I asked if they had any loose grapefruits.  "nope, it tells me I'm unauthorized
    whenever I order them.  All we have is the bag of grapefruit".  
  • The couple standing in the aisles arguing over who had to decide what was for dinner.  
  • The girls running through the aisles laughing and screaming
  • And finally, the bagger girl.  She was the top of my list of idiots today.  Instead of putting some of the heavier stuff on the bottom of the cart - she put it where I had to dig through so I could get the 12-packs of soda to put inside the trunk, so I could put the bags on top.  Then, the thing that really sent me over the edge, she set my eggs in the top part without a bag.  The one thing that probably needed to be in a bag and they were just sitting there.  All I could see is me picking them up out of the seat of the cart and plop, plop, plop, plop, plop. I was cranky.
None of these things are really worth me getting cranky about.  This stuff is just stupid stuff to set me off.  The girl at McDonalds obviously had more than one order on her screen, the other people aren't my problem and the girl bagging?  I just grabbed a bag and put my eggs in it myself - case solved.  

I have a bit of stress right now - my daughter just had her second surgery with two different cancer scares. THE GOOD NEWS - no cancer and she's starting to get better.  My mother is in a rehab facility due to a fall she took.  THE GOOD NEWS - she seems to be getting back on her feet.  My son has been furloughed, a second time, by the railroad.  THE GOOD NEWS - hopefully they will call him back soon again, here shortly when they realize they are the stupidest and worst run company in
What my face looks like most of the time
the world and they need people in order to make money.  Oops, my cranky came out again.  

I need to get through this month.  I need to get over my stupid, shitty attitude.  I need to remember that I am the luckiest girl in the world.  

Or maybe I just need to take a trip and get away for a bit, to a warmer climate.  Yeah - that's the ticket!!! 









The beach is summoning me.  Must obey!!!!

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