The jeans I pulled out of my closet. Broken down into goals. |
Stack one - Goal one |
Stack two - Goal two. |
Long term goal - Goal three |
Kathy Bates personified?? My hair looks really funky here Didn't really look that bad up close |
Two nights ago, we went to Bingo at the church. We do it pretty much every Friday, unless we have other plans. I'm standing in line for my dinner and this woman in front of me looks at me like she wants to say something. She says, "you know when you see someone and they look like someone? Like someone famous? I saw you and I thought you were Kathy Bates.". I just sat there. Not sure what to say. Not sure how to react. Don't get me wrong, I find Kathy Bates beautiful. But, she's also sixteen years older than me. What the Freak (really wanted to say a really bad word here, but, I withheld)!!!!! Plus, when I look in the mirror, I don't see me as heavy as she has been. I just bumbled through and said, "as long as it's not the crazy person she played in Misery". But, deep down I was rather hurt.
Posing - yeah, let's make that gut look Big and Large!!! |
That brings me back to last night. I was trying to get Ted to get a good picture of me in my dress. He took like six of them. Couldn't find one that I liked. All I saw was Kathy Bates. When we got there, there was another woman there. She never spoke one word to me, but, she chatted to some of the men there. She was sitting there crocheting. I kind of found that odd - crocheting at a formal event. But, the thing that struck me is that she was kind of dowdy. I felt bad for thinking it. She had let the gray grow from her colored hair about three inches, maybe she decided to just go gray, I don't know. But, she looked about ten years older than her husband. There was no attempt to really look nice. I don't want to be that dowdy woman. I want to care what Ted thinks when I go out with him. I want him to be proud of who he has on his arm. I always want him to call me his "trophy wife".
I've YO-YO'd long enought!!! Time to change. Time to move on. Time to work on healthy. Time to get the old jeans back in my closet. Time to stop feeling sorry for myself. Time to get off the couch. Time to move. Time to get back into shape. Time to live.
P.S. The reason the Wing Commander wanted Ted to go was because he was getting an award. A well-deserved award. He's pretty dang awesome.
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