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New Year


So, I just read Amberly's blog. The way she writes is amazing and I would love to tell her that I am not sure whether to be happy or sad by what she has written in her last post. Anyway, she got me to thinking.

Is tomorrow really a new beginning? Does one day really make the difference to a whole new life or ideaology or new way of thinking? Does one day change lives? Oh, I am sure they can change your life, but, does it necessarily have to be January 1? Yes, I do resolutions and they are alway the same thing. I resolve to lose weight. I resolve to pay off bills. I resolve to not take Ted for granted. YAWN YAWN YAWN!! Maybe it's time to resolve to NOT be Mary Sunshine. Maybe it's time to resolve NOT to let people take advantage of my good humor. Maybe it's time to resolve NOT to let the weight of the world get me down.

I would love to say I am not going to sit on my couch, with my computer on my lap and watch television constantly - but, I know that AIN'T gonna happen. I really do need to find a life outside of these four walls. A little depressing, I know. But, January seems to be the most depressing month for me. Probably not a good time for me to resolve to do anything. Who knows, maybe a month of graveyard shift will change my life and I can resolve to change it. We'll see.
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  1. UnknownJanuary 4, 2011 at 12:10 AM

    But your mary sunshines helps get me through the day.... one of my resolutions is to be more positive and accepting at work. And excuse me but I think you have quite the life with all fun family things you do, you have great friends who love you and you've been to paris for heavens sakes. ;-).

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  2. BerlyCrowJanuary 4, 2011 at 10:21 PM

    You should definitely be happy by what I've written! (and thank you for thinking it's amazing!) The stuff I write about, while it may seem sad, are things I'll never regret, and that's always something to smile about. (which might just be my next blog post). I took a break from blogging for awhile because I knew I couldn't NOT blog about stuff going on in my head, but then I figured, what the heck?!

    But as for this: "Maybe it's time to resolve NOT to let the weight of the world get me down." I think that just may be the best resolution I've heard yet!

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