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Bored and broke...

I'm just sitting here. It seems like all I ever do anymore is just sit here. Maybe it's because it's winter time, I don't know. All I know is that it seems like I never do anything anymore. I used to be active, go out and just hang out and shop. Problem is, now that I have no money, I no longer want to go just shop. I know Kohl's is having a crazy clearance sale - - - and still I sit on the couch. I would love to go to Kohl's - - charge up a credit card like crazy - - but, then you got to pay for it and more. It's so frustrating right now. AARRGGGHH!!!!!

Do you think it's going to get better anytime?? Do you think that Ted will one day get a new job, so I don't have to worry about losing everything at this stage in my life?? There are days I just want to turn back time and go back to where I actually had fun and just did what I wanted to do. I hate this feeling of helplessness. I hate this feeling of everything is going to crumble.......I hate this feeling that I just have no control of my life anymore.

Oh good grief - - I'll quit whining now.
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  1. UnknownFebruary 11, 2010 at 7:20 PM

    We all go through it and not just once. I too wish I could go blow the bank at Khol's(such great stuff) But we have to try to remeber to be "Adult(s)"...I know it feels like a swear word. Good Luck! 80)

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  2. BerlyCrowFebruary 12, 2010 at 5:31 AM

    Ditto your whole blog. Only replace Kohl's with Target. Or Pottery Barn. Or even the Liquor Store.

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  3. NatalieFebruary 12, 2010 at 6:56 PM

    Ah Colleenee. Here's a big hug for you :)
    I had no idea Ted wasn't working. See what happens when we don't work the same hours. :(
    I think it's just the crappy weather that is outside. It makes everything "blah". Here's to better days. *cheers*

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  4. CocoFebruary 13, 2010 at 7:21 AM

    Natalie - he's still working - - he just doesn't get paid all the time. And, they don't know how long the business will keep afloat... so we're just struggling.

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