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Christmas Day






For me, Christmas is pretty much over. The celebration was last night. We had a great day together. I love watching Zach and Chelsea get so excited. They had to help everyone open their presents. Part of Christmas is about that childlike excitement. All of the adults wanted to let them help open their presents - I think because we all remember that excitement from when we were children. I love my family so very much.

There is some sadness too. There has been a lot of loss this year and friends that have lost loved ones. You always remember the loss at this time of year. My memories of George and my dad seem a lot more vivid during Christmas time. Probably because Christmas is such a family oriented time.

Not only is there loss because of death, I get sad that Kara has chosen the path that she has. I love Kara very dearly, but I am sad that she feels it necessary to make the choices that she does. I guess I just can't fathom why anyone would choose a path of lies, deceit and deception over the love that has been offered. Is the attention you get from the behavior worth this kind of loss? She not only has lost my family, but her biological mother as well. It's just difficult for me, because I do love her so much, but I had to put my foot down and no longer condone the behavior.

I think this time of year really does bring reflection of love and loss that much more close to the heart.
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