It is a never-ending cycle. People thinking I do not eat, and that if I did, all my issues would be solved. All my issues would be corrected. That I'm just doing this to myself, because I refuse to eat. Nothing could be further from the truth.
I may not eat what many people do. Not as many calories, because I really have the smallest of pouches, so I get full faster. My meals tend to be cut into smaller and more frequent. For example, I have first breakfast. I have second breakfast. I have lunch. I have midafternoon meal. I have dinner. Then a snack a while before bed. And finally, I take a snack to bed with me.
My gastric surgeon told me, that when I get my NG tube, I will need to keep an intricate diary of my food, to see what I am taking in. What I am eating. And how many calories. So, I did a practice run and by the end of the day, I was around 1450 calories. But, it took one whole page of a legal sized notebook. It was a lot of food.
So, what do I eat?? Pretty much anything that sounds yummy to me. Right now, I'm on a big shellfish kick. Smith's Grocery Store has these beautiful boxes of shrimp with cocktail sauce. For some reason, I just saw them and decided it was what I wanted. So - in the last two weeks or so, I've bought about four of them. I started with the $5 box and now I just get the $10 one. I do share it, and she doesn't eat much, with my #roommatedaughter. I will eat the whole thing in two to three days. I generally eat at least five of them at one sitting. The other thing, in the shellfish category, steamed crab. Oh my gosh, I can down a pound of that in one sitting. And then, the daughter will have her own crab and say, I don't want this part. Yep, I eat that, too!!! Now I'm thinking I know what is for dinner!!!!
The weather has me thinking soup. I have many soups in my brain and planning out when to make them. On Saturday, I made this vegetable soup. It was so good. It was made with my canned chicken stock that I added to sautéed carrots, shallots, home grown green beans and celery. Let it simmer for a while, added potatoes, zucchini, cauliflower and yellow squash. Then a bit of macaroni. Finally, I added some of my canned tomatoes with onions, peppers and basil and right before serving it, I added a handful of frozen spinach. It was so tasty. I had my spice queen daughter add the seasonings, because I don't know what she does, but she makes everything much tastier!!!!
I know you didn't sign up for me to give you recipes. But, sometimes, I just can't help myself.
What else is in my brain?? Well, like I said, with the weather turning colder, I think a lot about soup. I haven't made clam chowder since my kids were little, but I got all the fixin's now!!! Ham and bean soup. Chicken and noodles. Beef stew. What can I say?? It's soup season.
My palate is not a normal palate. I deal with a lot of flavor and texture issues. What tasted really good yesterday, may not taste good today. I will have days that all I want is chicken. KFC or deli fried chicken usually. Right now, there is something about the texture that I cannot handle. I went through a big beef phase. Roast, steak, corned beef. We ate beef almost every day. Then one day, made a beautiful chuck roast with carrots and mashed potatoes and the nectar of the gods, gravy. And as soon as I started eating it, my palate had changed and I couldn't handle the texture or the flavor. I do have a current hankering for a barbecued burger. That will be on the menu in the next bit. With lots of pickles.
I still like my roast beef sandwiches, every once in a while. They are weird and nobody else would love them like me. I take a little over a half of a hoagie roll. I then mayonnaise and mustard on both sides. I add a slice of provolone cheese and the deli roast beef - and it has to be a particular kind of roast beef. Then I put a bit of red wine vinegar on the roast beef and some pepper. I keep it open faced for the next step - I pour more red wine vinegar on the plate, under the bread, so the bread can just soak it up and it's all soggy. I know - weird. But I haven't been eating those as much as I was.
I went through a Greek Salad phase. I still have a craving every once in a while. I have so much Feta Cheese right now. I hate wasting, so I need to make myself a salad again.
I'm sad that the harvest season is almost done. I will have to pull my tomatoes soon. And then I won't have the beautiful tomatoes and cucumbers that I love so much. But, it's the one thing I've had a hard time with limiting my sodium on. That and cucumbers.
Why do I bring this up?? Because it gets frustrating when people say, "eat a sandwich", "you need to eat", "you need food" and on and on and on. I mean, hell, my old PCP used to tell me to eat peanut butter every time he saw me.
Thankfully, I have a new medical team. We have a plan. And every time I see my old PCP, I say very bad words under my breath. Hopefully, the plan works.
Now a selfie of me eating!!!
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