Spontaneity - Not In My Bones!

I'm not spontaneous at all. I usually have some type of plan in my mind about what I am going to do with my hours and my days. Yes, there are things that come up - but, those things are also planned as things in my days, too, because I expect them.

So, when I was on a website and saw that there was a job opening, I have no clue why a spontaneous moment made me apply for it. I will say, that I am always looking at a particular website that has jobs. I look for myself and those in my life that may be looking for something. But, I never apply for a job.

Now, I am not counting on even getting a phone call. With the way the economy is going, I am sure there are a lot of people with the qualifications they want to do that job. But, I just felt that it was something that I needed to do.

The sad thing is - I know I could do the job, I know I could kick that jobs ass and make it mine. But, I am realistic enough to know that I probably won't be given the chance. I just know one thing, I can always say I tried.

Que sera sera.

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