CoCo's Corner

Penelope is the fourth grandchild to get her one-on-one with Grandma CoCo.  She was asked early last year where she wanted to go.  She waffled between Disneyland and LegoLand for a long time.  She suddenly got set on Disney and so that's where we went. She spent Saturday night with me and we woke up really early on Sunday and headed to the airport.  We were at the hotel by 10:30, we were able to get her clothes changed, give the hotel our luggage and catch the last shuttle for five hours to the park.  I kind of let her run the show that first day and we were all over the place.  It was a very busy holiday weekend and there were lines.  She was pretty upset about having to wait in lines - so it was hard to get her to decide on what to do.  We did very little that first day.  We did do one very important thing though, she met Belle.  That was worth the ticket right there.  She looked so sweet, dressed in her own Belle princess dress...

It's been twelve weeks tomorrow since that fateful night, sitting in a movie theater, watching an amazing movie, when my world shattered.  My entire life changed in the matter of one hour.  One hour of watching men and machines try to keep my husband alive.  One hour until that fateful moment that a man I'd never met before came to tell me that there was nothing left to do and turned my world upside down. I stayed up for 36 hours, not being able to sleep, and finally sleeping for a mere four hours the next night.  I spent that first day crying, continuously, because the face I had loved for 15 years would never be seen again.  That first day was a myriad of plans, decisions and getting things done.  Phone calls, texts, messages were coming non-stop.  And the love of people around me, people I knew and people I didn't, was very apparent. Then came the time that I could not sit still and I could not be alone.  That's when the anxiety started....